December 2009
30 posts
7 things I hate about you.
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure. You love me, you like her. You make me laugh you make me cry, I don’t know which side to buy. Your friends they’re jerks, When you act like them just know it hurts. I wanna be with the one i know. And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do, You make me love you.
Dedications TOO!
I’m gonna write dedications to the 3 people I can trust most in this world.
First, TEO WENLID.
Ever since we got close in June 0’9, you’ve been there for me so I’m always there for you! Seeing you cry, I feel like crying too, but I’ve gotta be brave, we’ve gotta be brave no matter what k! So don’t cry over HIM again, he’s not worth your tears! If I...
“Maybe.
I’m so unsure.”
– 27/12/09, 0123.
“The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for him with no intention of...”
– (via staree)
Didn’t you did that to me? The exact same thing.
“Maybe my heart didn’t really skip a beat. And maybe the twinkle in your eye was...”
– (via staree)
Maybe.
“I’ve thought about you so many times. I’ve tried to get over you but each time i...”
– (via staree)
And I thought I was doing the right thing to love you.
“I don’t want to forget you, but I want to forget what you did to me.”
– 20/12/09, 2159.
After.
After all this time, after all that you did, I can’t believe I’m still falling for you. I just can’t block the memories.
Its really hard.
“I say I hate you because I didn’t dare to say I love you.”
– 18/12/09, 2321.
One of them.
I’m so lucky I’m not one of them.
“You did not bear the shame.
You resisted.
Sacrificing your life
For freedom,...”
– The German Resistance Memorial, Berlin
“I can’t believe, for the countless amount of times you smiled at me, I...”
– 101209, 1346.
“Would I look back and cry? Or would I look back and say, ‘how stupid was...”
– 081209, 1702.
“How would I be sure that, for the 101th time I saw you, I felt something?”
– 081209, 1659.
“You just broke into my chest, took my heart out, broke it and forced it back...”
– 051209, 0027.
Sacrifices.
“It’s either you get him back, or leave him the way he is now.”
I’ve said this phrase so many times to so many people. And all of them chose to leave ‘him’ the way ‘he’ is now. I’ve always wondered, why would they choose that? Why won’t they get what they want?
And so I thought, why I chose that for him. I realised, I didn’t...
November 2009
12 posts
Anything, Everything.
I never meant it when I said I was angry at you, neither did I mean it when I said I wasn’t angry at you.
I told myself, ‘I’ve got everything’ when I was ‘with’ you. I’ve got everything because no one else showed up. In fact, someone left me. At that time, I was heartbroken, yet in love. How I miss those times where I could meet you at the back of the...